Betrayed by MY Emotions

Day 2 of waking up without you....

I feel kind of pathetic...paralyzed by emotions. tears running down my eyes. literally!

Why?

Why am I stuck in this feeling?

I feel psychotic...the only person that can take the pain away is far away living their life while mine

mine is at a standstill

missing them

needing them

aching for them

I am so emotional it annoys me, frustrates me. 

The worst part is not expressing them to you

You think my tears are childish

so my "I love yous" go unspoken

My "I miss yous" are masked

I've closed off my heart to you 

in hopes of masking all the emotions

I wish I could be like you

SECURE

but instead I'm betrayed

Betrayed by my own self

I'm yearning and its hurting 

especially because I'm not 

vocalizing